September 15, 2005, It was the day we were suppose to meet our baby girl! We were so excited that the time had come for her to come into this world. Our friends and family were in the waiting room waiting patiently for her arrival!
We were 35 and having our first child. We knew our life was about to change, but it did not happen quite the way we thought it would.
Kate was born by an emergency C-section at 2:38pm. I had been in labor and pushing when they lost her heartbeat.
Kate came into this world not breathing. The NICU team was there and begin working on her. They finally got a heartbeat and got her connected to life support and wheeled my beautiful baby girl over to where I was .
After I got to see her they wheeled her off to the NICU and Keith went with her.
They got me to recovery and then Keith came in with a picture that the NICU had taken to give to me.
I was praying that God would heal her body. I remember talking on the phone to my friend Joyce (you may remember her from being here with me after I got home from my double mastectomy and staying at the hospital with me when I finished my reconstruction and hysterectomy). From what I remember from that call she kept telling me she was coming to town and I kept saying to please put Kate on all the prayer list and pray.
Friends, this was suppose to be one of the happiest days of our lives! Our world had turned upside down and we just waited for some good news.
It was a very long night…it was not a long night because we were up with a crying baby.
It was a long night because we wanted to hear Kate’s cry. We wanted our baby to be healed. We wanted our baby to live.
The next morning our sweet Kate went to be with Jesus. She was totally healed just not the way we wanted.
One thing I know, we will be with her again one day. As a sweet lady once told me, when we get to Heaven she will be there to welcome us by saying,
“Hello Mommy, Hello Daddy”. Can you imagine when we get to see her again!!
If you have experienced the loss of a child through miscarriage, stillbirth or early infant death, you know the pain of losing a child. I am so sorry for your loss.
This is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.
You can go here to read more about how this awareness month came to be.
Psalm 139:13-16 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.