One year ago today, I received the call no one ever wants to receive.
I remember that day just like it was yesterday and I remember how God was already at work that very day.
Earlier this week I was reflecting on all that has happened this year and how God has walked with me through each and every day.
I give God all the glory for carrying me through this journey. I could have never walked through this without Him.
I am also very thankful for the army of prayer warriors that have stormed the gates of heaven. I knew others were praying for my healing and my test results just as I was and those times I could not pray for myself I knew others were praying for me.
God placed a village around me to help take care of me and my family this past year. Keith and I could not have done this without our village either.
The Saturday or Sunday after my first treatment, I was reading my Bible and Luke 1:37(old NIV) was underlined and I looked and it said “For nothing is impossible with God.” I felt like God was telling me then, that nothing was impossible for Him.
- Healing me, was not impossible for Him.
- Taking my worries away, was not impossible for Him.
- Going through chemo treatments without too many side effects, was not impossible for Him.
- Being able to lose my hair and it not bother me, was not impossible for Him.
- Nothing at all was impossible for Him a year ago and nothing is impossible for Him today.
April 5, 2017, my doctor called me at 9:53am and told me that she was calling to tell me that I had breast cancer. Those words, breast cancer, two words NO ONE EVER wants to hear their doctor say to them. She let me cry and wail into the phone that day. Once I calmed down enough that I could talk, she told me that she was going to be there every step of the way and she was! You may remember seeing me post pictures of her coming to some of my chemo treatments, she was there for me anytime. That day I remember her asking if I wanted to call Keith or if I wanted her to. I told her I wanted her to call. I knew he would be able to get more info from her than he would get from me because I was a mess at that moment. She gave me the number of the surgical oncologist to call while she called Keith.
I called the surgical oncologist and have no idea how the person on the other end of the phone could understand anything I was saying because I was crying the whole time from what I remember. They had to get my test results first and then said they would call me back. I asked her to beg the scheduler to please get me in that day. I hung up the phone with them and called Keith who was already on his way home. He had walked away from his desk and realized he had forgotten his phone, he went back to his desk to get it and had missed Dr. A’s call, but knew exactly why she would be calling him on the day we were all expecting my results.
After calling Keith, I called Susan. She had breast cancer 10 years before. I had talked to her after my biopsy because I was so scared. I called to tell her the results had come back and I had cancer. I didn’t know at that time what type of breast cancer I had, I just knew I had cancer. She talked to me for quite a while and there is something comforting about talking to someone who has been through the same thing.
The doctor’s office called me back around 11:30 and asked me if I could be there at 12:30. I could absolutely be there at 12:30. Keith and I headed to the oncologist office to start a journey I don’t think anyone would ever ask for. Here is my post all about that day.
1 Corinthians 14:3-4 says “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God”. I pray God uses me and the journey I have been through to minister to others going through this same journey just as Susan has ministered to me through my journey.
The LORD was fighting my cancer battle for me. He gave me the strength to walk through this cancer journey and to fight this battle. He is still fighting my battles for me because even though they have said the cancer is gone, don’t think I do not still wonder about every little pain I have. Please continue praying for me as you have this past year. Please pray that this ugly cancer never rears its ugly self again! Please pray that my frozen shoulder will thaw very soon and that the pain will completely go away and I will regain my range of motion.
If you do not know my Jesus, as your personal Savior and want to know more about Him, I would be glad to tell you more. As I have said in this post and many others, I could not have walked the past year without Him! You do not have to go through struggles and trials alone. God wants to walk with you each day.
Thank you for walking this journey with me this past year and thank you for your continued prayer.
Exodus 14:14 – The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.